I just want to say that for now, my goal weight is 50 kg. I don’t know why but I want to say that in kilos. Maybe because it’s a pretty number. Anyways, it’s 110.2 pounds. After that, I’ll probably want to go lower but for now, 50 kg it is.
I was 53.7 this morning. My body keeps on gaining and gaining and I feel so fucking lost. Today when I was tanning I actually thought I looked okay and then a minute ago I looked at myself and I literally gagged.
From now on I’ll post my weight in kilos and lbs. Every day. I can’t handle my body anymore.
1 day ago- Shopping
- Tanning
- Organizing my closet
- Organizing my blogs
- Reading
- Exercising (I’ll do this even if I don’t have time, because I can’t miss week 5 run 3 of course!)
- Drawing
So, I reached both of my goals for today. I ran week 5 run 2 of Get Running and I didn’t eat grains, cheese or sugar. Although there was a bit of sugar in my salad dressing… but I won’t use it again :)
Some other positive things about today:
- I had to give 2 presentations today at school and I was very nervous but I didn’t completely embarrass myself and now I don’t have to dread them anymore!
- I feel like I’m afraid to say this haha but right now next week seems to be a little less busy at school, actually I only have 1 test planned! I can’t remember the last time that happened. To be honest I haven’t even had time to breathe lately. At least that’s what it feels like.
Some negative things about today:
- I feel like I ate too much even though I know I didn’t and it really sucks. I feel like I ate 3,000 calories.
- Someone called me ‘confident’ today and somehow it triggered me so much and made me want to cut myself to pieces.
- I know for a fact that I’ve gained a lot of weight and I look enormous. I weighed 118 lbs today… A while ago my body always forgave me when I ate shitty things and I wouldn’t gain weight and you know, I actually felt okay. But now I seem to keep on gaining no matter what and I just don’t lose weight anymore. So upsetting.
- I felt like cutting multiple times today. I didn’t though, so I guess that’s positive.
Okay so there are more negative things but over all I don’t have a horrible feeling about today, it’s just the fact I’ve eaten too much that’s really bugging me… And I know I haven’t really eaten too much but I’ve eaten mindlessly. But it’s a good reason to focus more tomorrow.
My goals for tomorrow:
- Try to not eat mindlessly
- Write down everything I eat
Some meal planning for tomorrow:
07:30 AM - Coffee or green tea
(PE class)
10:15 AM - Breakfast (Probably yogurt, fruit and a hard boiled egg)
(school from 11-2, I’ll take 20 almonds with me and eat them at 1 PM only if I’m hungry!)
2 PM - Lunch (Probably some home made juice, a salad and some fruit)
(studying, when hungry I’ll snack on veggies, nuts or (dried) fruit)
6/7 PM - Dinner (Probably a salad and a steamed potato)
(shower, studying, whatever. I’ll snack on cottage cheese with fruit or yogurt with fruit when I’m hungry)
3 days agoI’m going to try to take it one day at a time when it comes to setting goals.
My 2 goals for tomorrow:
- Eat no grains, no cheese, no sugar (trying to do the challenge again a few days this week, inspired by Paige - healthyhitsthspot.com, whenever it’s possible and then all of next week, and hopefully the weeks after that)
- Run week 5 run 2 of Get Running
My plans for this week are
Tomorrow: school till 4, homework, dinner, running, shower, homework
Thursday: school till 2, study, go get new hand lotion, dinner, study, shower
Friday: school till 1, lunch with best friend, relax, probably hang out w/ other friend, relax
Saturday: run week 5 run 3 of Get Running, shower, study, relax, having a drink w/ friend at night
Sunday: relax & study all day, party at night
Monday: run week 6 run 1 of Get Running, study, relax/do whatever
For now I only have 1 (easy) test planned for next week (Tuesday). Friday June 1 it’s my friend’s birthday and I’m probably going out to party with her at night.
Oh and by the way, I feel like shit.
4 days agoI feel so shitty. Worked from 10-3 today and actually planned on running afterwards but I was so tired, my bones and muscles were aching so I decided to run tomorrow. I like running in the morning better anyway. I also didn’t eat right today and I feel disgusting.
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Don’t worry about tomorrow, focus on today. Focus on eating right for today, make it your goal for the day, and repeat it tomorrow, and the day after that and the day after that.Surround Yourself with Positivity
“Change your thoughts, and you change your world”, it’s really true. Think you can, and you can do anything. Think positive, breathe positive, live positive, be positive as much as possible. Focus on the solution, rather than the problem. Surround yourself with good people, good food (food that’s good for you), and good thoughts.
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Ask yourself what you want. What do you want from life? Who do you want to be? Where do you want to be? And make realistic goals. Now that doesn’t mean you can’t have your dream body, it just means realizing that it won’t happened overnight. Make S.M.A.R.T goals. Specific, Measurable, Attainable, Relevant, & Time-bound goals.SMART Criteria
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When you know you have been good to your body, treat yourself! Find a reward that inspires you- a new pair of sneakers or workout outfit, a new music CD for your walk or pamper your feet with a pedicure for all of your efforts. Give yourself a hug once in awhile! Train hard, eat right, sleep well, but once a week, allow yourself an indulgence. Enjoy your favorite dessert, get a massage, or simply take some time for yourself to relax.
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115.7 lbs :)
Not sure if it’s accurate, but to be honest it’s what I needed. I feel much cleaner and just better in general, and even though it’s just been like 2 days, this ‘3 large meals a day’ thing makes me feel really good. I love that today I had to get up at 7:45 because then I can probably tell what it’s going to be like on Monday (school) :) I just don’t feel deprived at all… I got up this morning, STARVING, and I just waited for the thoughts to come, the plans… (‘you should just skip breakfast’, ‘just don’t eat all day’, ‘ONLY have 1 healthy thing for breakfast’, whatever) But no! I mean, they came, but I’d already planned it all so this morning my mind had no say in it. Take that. It was lovely to wake up with the thought: ‘YES! I can eat a LOT of food for breakfast, I can keep on eating as much healthy food as I want until I feel really full. And then do the same at lunch, and dinner.’ Believe me, I can’t remember the last time I thought ‘I have complete permission to eat a lot, without guilt.’ So far, I really like it and I sincerely hope it’ll work for me at school as well.
I’ve consumed about 370 calories for breakfast. scaryscarydisgustingscaryscary it’s okay.
Breakfast
- 1/2 serving plain nonfat Greek yogurt w/ 3/4 Granny Smith apple and 1 handful walnuts
- 1/2 oats cooked in soy milk w/ 20 blueberries
- green tea
- 1 bottle water
Snack:
- Nescafe Cappuccino
Lunch:
- 1 slice whole wheat toast w/ peanut butter
- 1 slice whole wheat toast w/ Nutella
- 1 kiwi
- 2 fiber raisin cookies (I know this is a lot but I’m seriously like, NEVER full and I wanted to feel satisfied until dinner)
- 1 bottle water
- Diet coke
Dinner:
- 90 grams (3 ounces I guess?) grilled Pangasius fish w/ sea salt
- Grilled veggies (eggplant, zucchini, tomato, mushrooms) w/ sea salt
- Fanta Zero
Snack:
- 1/2 serving plain nonfat greek yogurt with A LOT of watermelon and 1/2 mango
- water
